It's official - I'm 42

I come from a family where age and weight are THE topics of conversation. That explains why no matter what the years or what the pounds, I always feel old and fat. Anyway, I've been saying I'm 42 for several months now, but today, I really am. DH actually forgot it was my birthday until we were at my ultrasoud this morning and I had to twist his arm for him to take me to dinner tonight (Cheesecake Factory - haven't been there in years). Not that I care that much - we're actually going to celebrate my b-day in Vegas next month once we get past the first trimester, so I'm going to make him pay, then. :)

I'm still exhausted, but less morning sickness - except when coworkers cook horrible smelling food in microwave at work. The stench just lingers for hours! There are still three babies, measuring a perfect 10 weeks. Two of them are even wiggling! I wish I could say I was excited, but I don't feel much of anything. I think my doctor is bummed I'm not jumping up and down with glee - it just doesn't seem real. It's also partly defense mechanism, I'm sure. These last 4 years have taught me never to let my guard down.

I have a question for you guys - do you ever tell people about your pregnancy that you didn't really want to tell, but felt guilty for not? I have a coworker (team member) - nice enough, a few years younger than my parents - that I ended up telling about the pregnancy/triplets the other day. I didn't really want to, but I could tell she knew something was up and since she's been my team lead for the last couple of years, I felt obligated. I know it's crazy and that it's none of her business, but I hate hurting people's feelings. Do you guys ever get this way?

Thanks - gotta run. Talk to you soon. Love you guys.

Still Three

Hi, Everyone. Thanks so much for your kind words. I'm doing better - still freaked out and in denial, but not nearly so hard on myself as I was. Today the babies are 9 weeks - all the same size with strong heartbeats.

More to follow later on in the week. Thanks, again, for everything.